Top laughed then, a small, broken sound. "You call that a victory?" he said. "You gave me what I eat. You offered me spectacle made of your confession."
Jules thought of the ledger's tally: friendship nights, lost minutes, small dissolutions of self. Jules also thought of Mara, whose dreams had gone flat; of neighbors who left lighter but more forgetful. The apartment filled with the hum of choices. Outside, rain began to hold its breath. the devil inside television show top
"Take who I was before the set," Jules finished. "Take a seam I can spare." Top laughed then, a small, broken sound
"Everyone who believes the television shows is bargaining in the same room," Top said. "We resize the past. We excise what hurts. The devil, you see, is not about brimstone. The devil is a bargain. He is a top spun until the center thins." You offered me spectacle made of your confession
People began to come over. The first was Mara, Jules's friend who loved true crime and antique radios. She sat with her face lit bluely and watched as the family on the screen argued about a coin. "They look like they’re voting," Mara said. The coin spun, and for a second every face in the room on the screen wore the same expression: expectant, hungry. Mara touched the brass plate. Her finger left a scorch mark, as if the metal had been briefly hot. Mara laughed and blamed an iron on the radio waves. That night, she dreamed of channels announcing people's names like weather reports.
"What do you want?" Jules whispered.